Episode 26

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Episode #26
Title 1: 世界の中心でアイを叫んだけもの
Sekai no Chuushin de AI o Sakenda Kemono
The Beast that Shouted Love at the Heart of the World[1]
Title 2: Take Care of Yourself
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Written By Hideaki Anno
Directed By Kazuya Tsurumaki, Masayuki
First Aired 3-27-1996
Video Release Date 9-9-1998 (Japan-Video/LD), 6-26-2001 (US-DVD)
Angel Appearances None
Eva Sorties None
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"Episode 25" "(none)"


Instrumentality continues. The focus is primarily on Shinji now, as he learns to accept the individual’s ability to shape their world, and how the self cannot exist without others to define it.


The year is 2016. Instrumentality is still ongoing and Shinji Ikari is one of all the people undergoing the process. The event is viewed from his perspective.

Shinji is confronted with the fear of ceasing to exist. However, he feels that this fear is not present in him, as he thinks that he might not need to exist, because he feels unwanted and useless. Misato Katsuragi tells Shinji that what he truly fears is failure. Failure to be loved, and of seeing how weak he truly is. Shinji replies that Misato does the same thing, and she agrees. In fact, she and other characters confirm that it's true for all humanity, this weakness. It is why Instrumentality is taking place. Humans cannot live alone, but yet they are separate entities: thus conflict and pain are created. Humans cannot live but in Instrumentality. "Really?" asks the text.

The questions, posed by Rei Ayanami: What are you alive for? Who are you living for? Are you happy being alive? Asuka Langley Soryu thinks it is for herself, and says that she is happy. Misato only wants to do what she enjoys. But Shinji is unsure of all these things. Ryoji Kaji's voice asks: "Do you hate feeling lonely? Do you hate suffering?" Shinji does. So does Misato. "So is that why you run away?" Kaji asks Misato. Misato answers in affirmative, asking what is wrong with running away from pain.

Shinji says "I mustn't run away!", being asked why, as he replies that it is because running away hurts just as much as what he ran away from. It's wrong, even when the others say that he can run away if he wants to. And if he runs, the others will forsake him. Yet also, if he does what others tell him to do, then they won't forsake him. He's afraid of being hurt, but the other characters tell him that he’s not the only one who feels pain. Shinji has just made himself believe that he’s the only one who gets hurt.

Shinji believes that he has no worth, and if he does nothing, then he won't be hurt, so that he has to do things like pilot the Eva because he has nothing else of value to give. Then, Shinji holds the telephone receiver, and through it, he hears the other characters saying they hate him. Even so, they like him when he pilots. But again, it is Shinji’s self-deception, both the hatred and his sole value being related to the Eva. The others warn him that with this, he will lose his own identity. But Shinji still believes that he has nothing.

Various images of nature are shown, and the characters discuss their feelings related to them. These questions are posed: What do you seek? What do you desire? Are you afraid of being insecure? Misato, Rei, Shinji, and Asuka are all afraid of being unloved. Shinji also wants to be worth something, so no one will abandon him.

Yui Ikari tells her son that only he can find his worth. Shinji can't understand where he exists, and asks if he is just the sum of items and symbols that others recognize as himself. He knows that what he feels to be himself, is himself, but that's not good enough. Shinji is still confused, he protests that no one understands him. The others tell Shinji, that only he can truly understand himself, so he must be good to himself. Again, he doesn't comprehend the meaning of that.

The others say that if Shinji depends on outward things to define himself, all these things will eventually change and disappear, as time passes. Only his heart and mind can truly change his world.

Then the construction of the place changes to a white void, where Shinji exists as a drifting pencil sketch. He interprets this as a world of nothing, but his own voice comes back and says that it's a world of perfect freedom. But perfect freedom is perfect nothingness, as there is nothing to hold on to, nothing to orient himself in. Gendo Ikari steps in and says he will give him a restriction: he draws a horizontal line across the void that defines a separation between ground and sky. With this Shinji loses the ability to fly, and has thereby sacrificed some of his perfect freedom, but in return, he feels more secure as he has something to walk on. In any world, things change, people change, and a person can shape the world, through the shaping of perceptions. Yet this must also be in the presence of others. Shinji, in this white world, feels that he is disappearing, and it is because he can't know his own shape without other things to compare with, and there is nothing else there. Shinji knows who he is, but other people must be there shaping his mind as well in order to form a complete self. That is the truth.

Shinji experiences an alternate reality which resembles a domestic comedy, everyone recast in appropriate roles: the Children are normal students, Misato is a teacher, Gendo works at the university[2][3], and Yui is a housewife. Shinji himself is drastically changed into a more typical teenage boy, confident and lecherous, while Asuka is his oldest childhood friend, and Rei is a transfer student, presented as a perky, ditzy schoolgirl.


After seeing this, Shinji realizes that there are alternate possibilities to his current life; a Shinji that is not an Eva pilot can exist as well. Reality might not be so bad, if there are all those choices. Shinji still hates himself, though. He is told again that he only believes that he is hated. People can only see things through their own filters. But they can change so much through that, by altering their perspective.

"Thank you."

After seeing this, Shinji realizes that there are alternate possibilities to himself, and decides that he can learn to love himself, and he wants to be "me" and to stay "here". The dark world shatters, and Shinji is left standing atop a coral reef under a sunny sky, surrounded by most of the other characters. He is wished "Congratulations!" by the human cast (and a squawking Pen Pen), and smiles, thanking everyone.

The final text reads:

"To my father, thank you[4]. To my mother, farewell[5]. And to all the children... Congratulations!"


  • As a bookend with Episode 01's opening caption of "In the year 2015 AD", this episode opens with the caption "In the year 2016 AD".
  • The alternate reality presented here was the inspiration for Girlfriend of Steel 2 and its accompanying manga, although Ritsuko and Kaworu were added to the cast, and more traditional Evangelion elements were later introduced.
  • When the line near the end is spoken, "But, I might be able to love myself.", it is said simultaneously by Shinji, Asuka, and Rei according to the after-recording script[6]
  • "Amidst the many words of congratulations, a faint smile starts at the corners of Shinji's mouth (and spreads across his face). A happy face -- that is the figure of the Complemented Shinji. This conclusion is also one form, one possibility among many." -Filmbook Vol. 9


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  1. The title The Beast that Shouted Love at the Heart of the World comes from a collection of short stories by American author Harlan Ellison. The Japanese word ai (love), could also be interpreted as representing the English "I". Both meanings are appropriate to the episode, but the Harlan Ellison title is considered the correct one.
  2. The AU Gendo's responses to Yui in the original script are "I know" and "Yes", echoing Shinji's way of answering Misato after the battle with Shamshel.
  3. The English-dubbed version of an alternate reality also changed some of the dialogue or added lines to make it raunchier. Most noticeable is the complete changing of Gendo's neutral dialogue with Yui to an involved conversation with some innuendo. (i.e. "I'm always ready, dear.")
  4. Shinji's "Thank you to my father" could be seen as a response to Gendo's "I'm sorry, Shinji." in The End of Evangelion.
  5. One of the final text lines, "To my mother, farewell" is also heard in Episode 26', although Shinji actually says that to his mother.
  6. EML archival link: It's the after recording script on volume 7 of the Japanese R2 DVD release. TV episode 26, page 62 of 67, cut 315."

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