SHINJI:“So, do I ultimately have no choice but to pilot it?
Even after killing someone I loved?
Are you saying I'm supposed to listen to my father and everyone else,”
midoriyoh: But why does Shinji have "no choice" but to pilot the Eva and kill Kaworu? His answers in the next scene are very revealing - “Because everyone tells me to pilot it.”. “If I pilot it, everyone praises me!” This conversation started with Shinji adamant that he needed to kill Kaworu out of unselfish sense of duty, but the longer it goes on, the more it becomes clear that the actual reason why Kaworu is dead is that Shinji couldn't bear not being praised by others for piloting the Eva. Of course, it was Shinji's duty to do it too - but as repulsive as he finds this thought, deep down he can't avoid admitting that it wasn't unselfish duty that motivated him.
