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| TEXT:“In the Case of Misato Katsuragi”
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| SHINJI:“This is the me that exists in your mind, Misato.”
MISATO:“And at the same time, the me that exists in your mind, right?”
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| SHINJI:“I must connect with all sorts of people in order for me to
find who I am.
I must search deep within myself.
I must search deep within the Misato that exists in my mind.”
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| SHINJI (OFF):“What is it that you want, Misato?”
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| TEXT:“"You want to be a good girl?"”
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| MISATO:“I have to be a good girl.”
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| MISATO:“Because my dad's not around.
I have to help my mom and be a good girl.”
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| MISATO:“But I don't want to become like my mom”
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| MISATO:“because she's always crying when my dad isn't here.
No crying, no being spoiled.”
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| MISATO:“That's why I have to be a good girl.”
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| MISATO:“And I'm going to do my best so my dad won't hate me.”
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| MISATO:“But I hate my father.
That's why I hate being good too.
I hate it all now.
And I'm so tired.
Of having to maintain my clean image.
Of myself, for keeping up this pretense of being so pristine.
I'm just tired of it.
I want to be dirty.
I wanted to see what I looked like when I was no longer perfect.”
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| RITSUKO:“Is that why you slept with him?
With that man?”
MISATO:“No, I slept with him because I loved him.”
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| MISATO:“Did you really love him?”
MISATO:“Yes, I did.
He accepted me for who I am.”
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| MISATO:“He was kind to me!”
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| MISATO:“No! Stop it! Don't show this part of me to Shinji!”
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| KAJI:“There's no reason to be embarrassed after all that has happened.”
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| MISATO:“It IS embarrassing!”
MISATO'S VOICE:“Why is it embarrassing?
You have no problem...
no, you actually enjoy presenting this side of yourself to the man you love.”
MISATO:“No! Please stop!”
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| MISATO'S VOICE:“In all honesty, you are actually happy to show this to Shinji.”
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| MISATO:“That's a lie! You're wrong! Wrong!”
MISATO'S VOICE:“I don't know about that.
You actually want to show this to your father, don't you?”
MISATO:“You're wrong!”
MISATO'S VOICE:“You sought peace in Kaji's face as he slept.”
MISATO:“You're wrong!”
MISATO'S VOICE:“You sought peace in Kaji's warmth.”
MISATO:“You're wrong!”
MISATO'S VOICE:“You sought your father in Kaji's arms.”
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| MISATO:“That's right.”
MISATO:“That time, I saw my own father in Kaji.”
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| MISATO:“That's why I ran away from him.
I was scared.
It was as if he were my father and...
But it was actually because I was happy.
I derived pleasure from it.
It was a moment of unbearably wonderful feeling.
That's why I hated it.”
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| MISATO:“That's why I split up with him.”
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| KAJI:“Well, I guess it just means love begins for no reason,
but always ends for a reason.”
MISATO:“You're so kind, Kaji.
Please take that kindness...”
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| MISATO:“...and tarnish me with it.”
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| KAJI:“Just because you hate yourself now doesn't mean you should hurt yourself.
That's just fooling yourself into feeling better
by punishing yourself for the moment.”
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| KAJI:“You should stop doing that.”
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| MISATO:“And you're going to tell me to be good to myself, right?”
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| MISATO:“That's what all men are like.
And after that, they go off to work, into their own worlds.
Leaving me behind...”
CHILD MISATO:“Just like Father.”
MISATO:“All I'm ever doing is running away from the harsh reality.”
MISATO:“Harsh reality?
That's me, isn't it?
Of course, just look at me. It's only to be expected.”
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| MISATO:“Sometimes, I lose all hope for myself! I hate it!”
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| IBUKI:“FiIth, you're so dirty.”
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| RITSUKO:“You're pathetic.”
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| ASUKA:“Disgusting! You're just foul!
That's what you call a mature relationship?! You make me puke!”
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| HYUGA:“Congratulations on your promotion, Major Katsuragi.”
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| MISATO:“The person being recognized is the me who's putting on a
performance in order to be recognized.
It's not the real me.”
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| MISATO:“The real you is aIways crying.”
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| MISATO:“No! This isn't happiness!”
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| TEXT:“"What is happiness?"”
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| MISATO:“This isn't the real me!”
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| MISATO:“I've only made myself believe that it is!”
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| SHINJI:“Is that what we have to do to keep on living?”
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| SHINJI:“You're afraid when you're not together.”
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| RITSUKO:“Unless someone's sleeping by your side.”
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| ASUKA:“Are you scared of sleeping by yourself?”
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| IBUKI:“Are you lonely sleeping by yourself after all?”
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| KAJI:“You can't bear the loss in your heart.”
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| HYUGA:“That's why you'll be with anyone, it doesn't matter who.”
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| MISATO:“That's not true!”
MISATO:“No, you just want to give yourself
over to simple pleasure.
You just want to soothe your soul through temporary escapes
and you're only using men to that end.”
MISATO:“No! You're wrong! Wrong!”
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| TEXT:“What could it be that she wants?”
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